I completely understand. I knew my "daddy" for almost five years and it was like pulling teeth to get him to even text me "good morning". He was 20 years older than me, so I hoped he would be different
I want him so badly.. not talking to him is so hard...
It feels like there's a ribbon around my chest pulling me to him.. But I know I deserve better than this... or I like to think I do... hope I am... Lets be strong together
I mostly let myself feel the pain, because I know if I feel it, I can heal from it. Then I stress eat mac and cheese and iced tea. Watch a "I dont need no man" Disney movies like Brave or Bambi (this seems counterproductive, but the crying REALLY helps
) Thomasina is my movie of choice at the moment. Then I try to remind myself how beautiful and lucky I am.
Then I look at old photos of him and doodle silly mean quotes on his forehead.
Hope this helps!