- 8 years ago
#1265
Anyone feel overly sexualized?
To the point where they're saying, "Maybe I'm not a little..." because of the sexualization of the dynamic?
Don't get me wrong. I'm not a nonsexual little. Not at all. Daddy and I often have special playtime.
And, yes, I know nonsexual littles exist. Do you know how many I've actually encountered though? Less than 5. How many physically intimate littles have I encountered? Oh, hundreds, easily.
Going through tumblr and twitter though...I feel like I'm lost and don't belong sometimes. I'm not into so much...adult art. So much...adult things. I kind of feel like sex is a "Big" thing and, even though I'm little during it all, Daddy babies me and praises me for doing things big girls would do. I've had 'vanilla' sex and it's draining because it's such a "Big" act to me. Daddy and I have a different kind of caregiver/little dynamic though. Maybe we're just the oddballs here.
Maybe I feel like I don't belong because I have 0 interest in adult art? I have 0 interest in being spanked or watching girls be spanked or choked by their scene-Daddies? I have 0 interest in most BeDeeSeM things. It's like 99.9% of everything 'little' on these social media sites are sex or sex-driven.
I get messages from Daddies. It's always straight to some form of sex talk. Never a friendship interest of any type. Never a platonic conversation about the scene or life. A prompt for physically intimate talk of some sort or they have no interest in communicating. Why don't Daddies want just-friends too? And why aren't littles sending me messages, wanting to be friends?
(And I've looked. I desperately wanted someone around my biological and little age to do gift exchanges with throughout the year but I couldn't find anyone interested in talking to me and getting to know things I liked so we could buy for each other.)
Nothing wrong with physically intimate conversation/roleplay, of course, but it' just seems so...
...adult.
And I feel like I'm not an adult, really.
And I had some idea that most littles didn't feel adult either?
I thought we wanted to ramble on about our favoritest candy ever and how our stuffies come to life when we're not watching? How we want to live with Peter Pan and sleep in a pile of the softest stuffies ever?
Do I just not really belong?
What's wrong with me?
To the point where they're saying, "Maybe I'm not a little..." because of the sexualization of the dynamic?
Don't get me wrong. I'm not a nonsexual little. Not at all. Daddy and I often have special playtime.
And, yes, I know nonsexual littles exist. Do you know how many I've actually encountered though? Less than 5. How many physically intimate littles have I encountered? Oh, hundreds, easily.
Going through tumblr and twitter though...I feel like I'm lost and don't belong sometimes. I'm not into so much...adult art. So much...adult things. I kind of feel like sex is a "Big" thing and, even though I'm little during it all, Daddy babies me and praises me for doing things big girls would do. I've had 'vanilla' sex and it's draining because it's such a "Big" act to me. Daddy and I have a different kind of caregiver/little dynamic though. Maybe we're just the oddballs here.
Maybe I feel like I don't belong because I have 0 interest in adult art? I have 0 interest in being spanked or watching girls be spanked or choked by their scene-Daddies? I have 0 interest in most BeDeeSeM things. It's like 99.9% of everything 'little' on these social media sites are sex or sex-driven.
I get messages from Daddies. It's always straight to some form of sex talk. Never a friendship interest of any type. Never a platonic conversation about the scene or life. A prompt for physically intimate talk of some sort or they have no interest in communicating. Why don't Daddies want just-friends too? And why aren't littles sending me messages, wanting to be friends?
(And I've looked. I desperately wanted someone around my biological and little age to do gift exchanges with throughout the year but I couldn't find anyone interested in talking to me and getting to know things I liked so we could buy for each other.)
Nothing wrong with physically intimate conversation/roleplay, of course, but it' just seems so...
...adult.
And I feel like I'm not an adult, really.
And I had some idea that most littles didn't feel adult either?
I thought we wanted to ramble on about our favoritest candy ever and how our stuffies come to life when we're not watching? How we want to live with Peter Pan and sleep in a pile of the softest stuffies ever?
Do I just not really belong?
What's wrong with me?