[Gothica]

I have had DP/DR for 9 years. It is horrifying to think that I have had it that long. I go through waves where it is hardly noticeable and other times it completely suffocates me. The strangest thing for me is that I still remember what life felt like before I felt so paralyzed with the disorder. It was much different than what I have felt for nearly a decade. Before the disorder started, I actually felt alive and well. The world around me felt real without question. There might have been a few instances of dp but very little. I miss that part of me so much. I feel dizzy, zombified,faint, trapped in a fog, stuck behind glass, like i'm living in a dream, and numb.I wouldn't wish this feeling upon my worst enemy.
Do any of you experience this or have advice?
I would really like to try to overcome this but I am starting to give up hope.