[Deleted User 12951]

So there's an underlying reason why I'm trying to expand my little side. My parents got divorced when I was 8 or 9 and I didn't have any contact with my mom for about 8 yrs. Over those years my father remarried to this bleep of a woman who took every chance she could to belittle me, her children did it as. Anyway so March of 2011 rolls around and I had just got in contact with my mom a few months prior; I had visited with her one Sunday and headed home to my fathers. Well a few days later my father pulls me outside to break the news that mom died. It hurt so much, but what hurt more was he didn't seem to feel anything about it. Then the last viewing came around and neither him nor my stepmother went and that still hurts me to this day. However, when my ex showed me ddlg/mdlb it gave me a little be joy cause I have this void that just keeps eating away at me and it's slowly winning. There's a lot more to this story but it's hard to type so I'm just gonna leave it here (Only cause I know I'm going to start balling if I don't )

[Cuppycake102]

Hey undead_hacker42
I kinda know how u feel. I didn't go though the same situation but I did end up with a step patent who wreak hell on me and my sibblings

[PeppermintBatty]

DDLG/AB is a wonderful way to fill the void you have in your life of childhood experiences you desperately wanted but were unable to actually receive. Nothing really fits if you're looking for mommy to cuddle you than actually designating a trustworthy person as your mommy and cuddling them. Of course, it may not feel as real when you're not actually small, but the positive feelings I get from the arrangement help me feel positive about life in general.