- 4 years ago
#54021
So I just wanted some advice from people who might understand my point of view. I'm married and completely in love. I recently talked to my husband about ddlg again for maybe the 4th or 5th time, he'd previously been very vague about where he stood with his opinion, so vague I thought he might've felt positively towards it which is why I kept bringing it up. This last time he told me how he really felt which was pretty negative he actually got upset with how much he disliked it which is rare for him. He wasn't misinformed, surprisingly he was very knowledgeable for someone completely outside the community, it's just that ddlg is definitely not his thing. This is all completely fine, liking different things, even though he dislikes it he didn't judge me or anything. Being a little is part of me, I've packed up all my things I had around our house that were for my little self, coloring books, my knee high unicorn socks, everything pink, I packed it all away. I replaced it all actually because it was so many things, down to my toothbrush its purple now instead of hello kitty. I couldn't throw it out because it means so much to me I just locked it all away to hide so he doesn't have to see it anymore. In our discussion I told him about how I've been a little all this time and so he knows all those things are directly tied to me being little. He didn't explicitly tell me he didn't want to see it anymore but I feel so guilty having it now I get sick to my stomach when I see it, ashamed when I slip up and start talking like a little like he'll pick up on it and tell me to stop. I was just wondering if anyone had any ideas on how to be a little without a daddy, and maybe some support for a little who's littlespace is now locked away in a closet.