Desphiria wrote: ↑1 month ago
Yeah. Mine stem from a lot of online relationships that just didn't work out. They weren't real. They were all RP but I had real feelings for those people. Now I'm hella jaded. Or closed off. One of those two. Sooo, I don't really bother getting close to anyone anymore cause if I were in a relationship I don't think it would last long.
This is crazy. Back in middle school I had a RP group that served as my group of friends because no one in my MS would talk to me (it sucked). My parents found the account about a year in and forced me to delete instagram (the platform we interacted on most frequently) and I wasn't able to have access to the group until a couple years later. By that point, almost everyone from the group had retreated back into their corners of the world and internet, and there was only one girl from the group that was still active on their account by the time I came back around. To this day, both of us have no idea what happened to the rest of the group. I think about them more than I would have expected nine years later... and the knowledge that I'll likely never know where everyone ended up leaves me borderline despairing.
Losing online friends is probably one of the most difficult things, if only because of the ambiguity you're left with after everyone's gone. Sending you all of my love and appreciation. You're not alone.