[Monkeegurl90]

Hi, I’m new to this site. I’m kinda diving back into this lifestyle and by diving I mean more along the lines of wading in quickly. I’ve known I was little since at least 17 and I’ve been into diapers since I was 5 or so. I’ve had relationships in the past that really only ended up as friendships (which is great) or just fizzled

When I first met my husband(then boyfriend) he was open to the lifestyle, however a few things have made it complicated. Mind you he had never heard of such a thing and was raised very traditionally. He has broken my trust on a few different things that has been trying to mend back together. I can easily forgive but it’s very hard for me to forgive as well as let walls come down again. We now have 2 small children which makes time for anything intimate nearly impossible also being pregnant and having surgery(c sections) messes with how you feel overall.

Basically, I’m feeling super vulnerable and sad right now. He claims he wants to be let in again but it’s very hard for me to let go around him anymore.
I think there is a part of me that thinks the same will happen again. I also feel like he really needs to do more research on things in order to make me trust he really wants to do this for me as we’ll seeing more of an effort. (This is by no means me saying I don’t want to be with my husband. I do love him very much.) I guess I just wish I could go back to the part when we had a dynamic of DDlg so I could try all over?

Any tips or suggestions on how I can broach the subject with him without feeling super embarrassed?