- 2 years ago
#56805
So I am facing some changes in life (looking for a new job, trying to expand my social circle) and I thought I would rejoin a support group site that used to help me through my more anxious moments. I had met some wonderful people there in the past.
Anyway, I signed up and someone wanted to chat with me. We were having a perfectly pleasant conversation until the person became inappropriately physically intimate. It was so disappointing and I felt so dumb and naive. I ended up blaming myself, wondering if somehow, deep down, I wanted things to go that way, and I started to worry that I will never be able to invite positive, kind, gentle people into my life. I mean, I would love it if I could find someone gentle AND yummy… but that’s probably not something I deserve just yet.
I decided to leave that site to focus on myself some more. I am trying to avoid being needy. It would be so nice to feel like I have something to offer in a relationship.
On a positive note: I made some art out of beautiful autumn leaves. It made me so happy! ^_^
Anyway, I signed up and someone wanted to chat with me. We were having a perfectly pleasant conversation until the person became inappropriately physically intimate. It was so disappointing and I felt so dumb and naive. I ended up blaming myself, wondering if somehow, deep down, I wanted things to go that way, and I started to worry that I will never be able to invite positive, kind, gentle people into my life. I mean, I would love it if I could find someone gentle AND yummy… but that’s probably not something I deserve just yet.
I decided to leave that site to focus on myself some more. I am trying to avoid being needy. It would be so nice to feel like I have something to offer in a relationship.
On a positive note: I made some art out of beautiful autumn leaves. It made me so happy! ^_^