- 8 years ago
#13141
I only recently started describing myself as a little, before, I think the best term I could come up with was ageplayer. I have a strong interest in age regression, but also a very high sex drive. One of the biggest adult interests or turn-ons I have is "taboo", and enjoying things that are typically considered forbidden and I love dealing with opposites, big with small, older with younger, etc. I really got into this all by enjoying ageplaying as a young boy having sex with an older woman. This fit me quite well because as a younger guy I was always attracted to older women, and my outlet for these roleplays has always been long distance, typically chatrooms. As time went on I started to realize I enjoyed the fantasy more than whatever character I played, and I was a good roleplayer so I even tried the opposite, roleplaying as an older woman with a younger boy, partly I'll be honest due to the fact that it was easier to find partners that way. Only recently I've even taken to roleplaying as a young girl with older men or older man with young girls, strictly in roleplay, not with actual children in any context.
I've always viewed this sort of ageplay as a harmless outlet for physically intimate fantasy. I honestly have zero physically intimate interest whatsoever in children, nor do I condone or tolerate it. In fact I've been chilled to the bone to the point of almost becoming sick at the mere description of what some child molesters have done. I don't consider myself a pedophile in any way, shape, or form. Nor do I fear that my roleplaying will in any way be some gateway drug into that. I enjoy the aspect of a more carefree and playful persona exploring and being curious, I enjoy the taboo juxtaposition of older with younger, but there's no physical attraction at all to children.
What I worry about, what I fear, though is whether or not what is harmless and a safe outlet to me, is decidedly less so to others. I have no doubt most, if perhaps not all of my partners are purely interested in a roleplay scenario, but I admit I take it for granted. I often find myself wondering now if something bad could come of what I think of as harmless. Maybe the person I am talking to really is a pedophile? I take great care to not divulge personal details, I almost always use a different name, and avoid probing questions about the "real me" or my "real family" but as safe as I try to be online, I often wonder if there's something I take for granted. I used to think that it was easy to spot someone who was a real pedophile, and while sometimes this is the case, in other cases I think it's not.
So just curious if anyone else has fears, or worries about this, maybe some advice or feedback... just would like to get other's input.
I've always viewed this sort of ageplay as a harmless outlet for physically intimate fantasy. I honestly have zero physically intimate interest whatsoever in children, nor do I condone or tolerate it. In fact I've been chilled to the bone to the point of almost becoming sick at the mere description of what some child molesters have done. I don't consider myself a pedophile in any way, shape, or form. Nor do I fear that my roleplaying will in any way be some gateway drug into that. I enjoy the aspect of a more carefree and playful persona exploring and being curious, I enjoy the taboo juxtaposition of older with younger, but there's no physical attraction at all to children.
What I worry about, what I fear, though is whether or not what is harmless and a safe outlet to me, is decidedly less so to others. I have no doubt most, if perhaps not all of my partners are purely interested in a roleplay scenario, but I admit I take it for granted. I often find myself wondering now if something bad could come of what I think of as harmless. Maybe the person I am talking to really is a pedophile? I take great care to not divulge personal details, I almost always use a different name, and avoid probing questions about the "real me" or my "real family" but as safe as I try to be online, I often wonder if there's something I take for granted. I used to think that it was easy to spot someone who was a real pedophile, and while sometimes this is the case, in other cases I think it's not.
So just curious if anyone else has fears, or worries about this, maybe some advice or feedback... just would like to get other's input.