- 2 years ago
#56375
so i kind of(?) have a caregiver/babysitter and they said they like me (romantically) but we're not in a relationship yet and recently i joined a a chat site server where they had been in for a long time and they have all their friends there and they said they didn't want me talking much in the server because they felt uncomfy with it? apparently they said it's bc of potential drama (as their ex had caused drama for them and their friends) but i know i wouldn't ever try to cause them any problems and i hardly interacted in the server in the first place. i just wanted to talk a bit and maybe make friends but they said they don't want me to talk in there when it was them who wanted me to join the server in the first place. so now i can't help but feel kind of upset because i felt good talking in the server and usually i get too shy talking in big servers. i don't want to make them upset or uncomfy but at the same time i feel sad that they're not letting me at least talk a bit in the server even to people that might not be their friend or might not know them. i obviously understand what had happened with their ex and the stress that might have caused but i know i wouldn't try to cause any drama for them and their friends, in fact even the idea of it seems absurd to me as i hate causing problems myself.
it isn't so much a problem as i rarely spoke in the server, only when relevant conversation came up, but it makes me feel like they don't actually want to be with me seeing as they say they like me romantically but don't want to share it. maybe it's just a sense of jealousy talking but at the same time it does make me feel upset that they're showing themselves as to be single and searching when they clearly said they want to be with me and care for me.
umm does it seem wrong that im getting upset over this?
it isn't so much a problem as i rarely spoke in the server, only when relevant conversation came up, but it makes me feel like they don't actually want to be with me seeing as they say they like me romantically but don't want to share it. maybe it's just a sense of jealousy talking but at the same time it does make me feel upset that they're showing themselves as to be single and searching when they clearly said they want to be with me and care for me.
umm does it seem wrong that im getting upset over this?