- 3 years ago
#55899
So I live in a small apartment with my mother and I have a very strange relationship with my mother. I have not told anyone I know in my life about little space. I just feel I don’t know enough about it and I don’t want people to feel weird around me. My room has been very messy for some time and I was at my dads house for the weekend. I was talking to my dad about how frustrated I was with my mother and we decided a goal should be to try to work on my room. So I went home ready to do that, but when I got there my room was clean. I am trying to change my reactions with my mom to be more positive so I didn’t want to be mad at my mom. I know she found my diapers I was trying out and I felt embarrassed but I thought maybe she would ignore it. So when she picked me up I was trying to be positive about it until she said “I’m a little concerned about the diapers I found in your room.” And I got super embarrassed and nervous I felt like crying. She was like “is something wrong? I wish you would talk to me about these things.” And I didn’t know what to say so I made up an excuse and told her I wish she didn’t clean my room for me. And she got upset and started saying that she almost cried because she was upset for me living like that. I tried to tell her it wasn’t anything bad and she was like “so you just like wearing diapers?” And scoffed. She said she wants to talk about it more but I’m not really ready to tell her. I am trying to be positive but now I’m feeling super anxious and worried about telling her. I’m also still trying to prove to my mother that I’m an adult and I don’t need her. So this was the worst time for her to find out about little space. I’m not sure what to do in this kind of situation I’m still very new to little space. If anyone has some ideas or similar experiences it would be really helpful. Thank you