- 5 years ago
#50523
I'm a woman in my late 20s and got married 2 years back to a nice normal bloke. I've always wanted to be a mummy and right before he and I got married I told him all about it. It was a shock because he had been keeping secret his desire to be a adult baby! We made a very serious agreement of rules that included him always being nappied no matter what. For 2 years I've played out having a baby husband! But we're going through financial hardship and about a week back he very suddenly just said he'd stop buying his nappies to save back. They don't cost much but maybe £40 a month total. It surprized me but I guessed he wasn't to serious because of the huge promises we made 2 years back and for the 2 years him being always nappied. He ran out of nappies the day after and that's been that. He didn't go to buy them and it's been his duty for the 2 years. I half expected him to be grizzly if not nappied but that's not been! I feel bloody strange and I'm feeling hurt and confused. I feel I've gone mad. I know this sounds poor but I've refused sex with him because I don't know how to think. I don't want to hug or kiss him or spend much of time with him. I've not offered his dummy, dressed him in a babygro, or acted as his mummy as I have been. I'm hurt because he broke his promise and because it feels like he's taken my baby away. I feel I don't want to be married to him if he's not my baby but don't want to be making him to do it if he's not in it. I feel my face has been coloured red the past week from all these feelings! I'm to have tea with his mum this week and this is all I can think of. I know I can't talk about it without hurting him. I've come here and hope there's something to be done. What do I do? How do I stop wanting to be mummy to him? How do I forgive the broken promise that meant loads to us 2 years back?